it's blowing a gale outside.. i am sitting here with only echo surrounding me in this room.. i am feeling cold and warm.. and i find myself stucked between the world of confusion and the world of fact.. neither here nor there hanging in the balance of transition.. there are times when i have to put on my fake smiles in front of people.. i have to do things i don't like and i have to go thru the hard way.. or maybe i have to go to the wrong way in order to make my next path the right way.. and i am not sure which is the right one.. am in my tears and tell myself they are all fake.. i try so hard to become someone everybody worth but on the other hand i am looking myself down.. why isn't?? the person is me wasn't me afterall..

i've been here for almost 1 month now.. wow.. time flies.. okie, so i am 1 month closer to meet my family.. haha.. wat a dream!!

things are not as bad as wat i think maybe.. haha..

at least living out on myself for the first time.. burned out something for the first time.. it's better to learn earlier than late night.. trust me.. everyone learns better the hardway..

see this is the result!!

my lunch.. =).. it's tempting rite?? off course i know.. and it's tasty too.. haha.. (I COOK ONE WO)!! haha.. **do praise me, then i ll consider to cook for u**

i think i realize a lot even though just living here for like 1 month.. it is only through hardship then we learn our lessons best.. and i think it serves u all as well.. well so no point flushing myself down the toilet lo.. haha..

or at least..

erm.. it's at flat 3A, room 2.. =)

hey daddy, mummy, and sisters.. if u happened to wake up at this time.. yea.. a very good morning to u all.. do enjoy the possible breakfast we might have on sunday.. like chili pan mee or sampeng road har mee or dim sum or nasi lemak or duck king noodles or etc.. huh.. i just came back from the trip - blackpool le.. yea.. it's timed 1:25am now!! i am dead tired.. so good night!! _______ to be continued!!

Date: 07 October 2008
Time: Ard 1pm
Venue: Flat 3B, Bramall Court

A lady named Kow Lip Yee nearly burned down her house's kitchen in this gloomy afternoon.. As she did not aware that the food got burnt to a crisp in microwave.. and then caused the smoky kitchen.. The incident had brought the following circumstances:-

1. the fire alarm rang like nobody business as in the "efficiency" of the smoke detector..
2. the administrator came up and knocked on the door..
3. the house is fill with the unpleasant smell..
4. she called back home and asked for help!! (and ranted to go home again!!)
5. she brought the smell over to next door and whole lecture hall..
6. she is sorry to her housemates.. and the guys whom she ranted to..
7. she is definitely guilty and sad.. (although she knows that that is enuff of ranting..)

She is now racked by feelings of guilt.. but how and who cares??
(edited) oh yea.. the bf cared.. asked me not to burn down my 'penthouse'.. =_=''
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Seriously if there is a toilet bowl right now beside me.. i would flush myself down.. for crying out loud now, i still can't believe i am this careless.. i am sorry to everyone for bringing so much of troublesomes.. sigh!!

Time: 3:15pm, Thursday
Venue: Lloyds TSB Bank plc St Marys Gate
Incident happened by the conversation between the personal banker, Steve Branagan and I

As to open a bank account, i have to answer a questionaire regarding my personal details..
So it started like.......

S.B: ........
L.Y: ........
S.B: ..........
L.Y: ...........
S.B: so how much you have to pay for your accommodation each month?
L.Y: erm.. about two thousand and five hundred pounds sir..
S.B: oops.. are you sure miss kow?
L.Y: erm.. sorry just a while (then thinking).. yea, i am sure..
S.B: well i am wondering where is the penthouse you're staying in..
L.Y: oh.. i am staying in Bramall Court at Cannon Street.. where is not a penthouse sir, it's a university hostel..
S.B: oic.. erm.. miss kow, i think there is sth wrong with the fees that the uni charged on you.. i suggest that you go and check with the relevant authority..
L.Y: oh okie.. thank you..

a moment later, while checking on the answers that i provided............................ (laughing) excuse me sir, i think i must be too nervous till spelled out a wrong figure.. =) haha.. (laughed together)

to all my friends.. i am not exaggerating.. but i do feel sad of leaving these (u guys) wonderful people in my life.. no doubt we will meet again but would we be this close to each other? can i still confide to you like how i always do? wat will happen to our meet on Friday? it would probably be replaced with some other activities, which i may or may not like.. but i ll always remember to be grateful for meeting u guys opened up my eyes to great things and i have learned a great deal.. thanks for bringing out the best in me.. life as in the last 4 years is by far the most interesting and educating time of my life, perhaps it's the people that i have met that made it so worthwhile.. i got to admit that i am always not putting in effort to keep in touch.. but this time, trust me.. i am giving my best..

p/s: i am writing this as i got an email from a friend.. i am sorry if u think u're deserted.. but the fact is that u're not.. i say this from the bottom of my heart!!

i have learned the art of letting go not too long ago.. and trust, the whole time of not being able to let go, it was very hard for me.. i live a life where i was just so pathetically wallowed on my own self pity and with all honestly, i believed it looked bad on me too.. it made me looked so bitter.. i then told myself.. i ll nvr dwell on bad things for too long, nvr again.. letting go may be one of the hardest things we ll ever do, but we finally do let go.. we ll realize that things that seem so terrible dramatically bad to us are just petty things that we should have swept off eons ago.. i know i can't undo the past but i know i can let go and let karma take its toll.. i already have let go. now, wat abt u?

ahem.. ahem.. i am now a university student!! hooray.. Salford undergraduates.. (yet, u hv to study hard la..) haha.. erm.. i got 3 subjects for this semester.. but the timetable is full from Monday to Friday.. ridiculous i think.. anyway.. i attend only 2 hours class each on Monday and Wednesday.. while 4 hours class on Tuesday and Friday.. acceptable i guess..

anyway we plan to work.. a few of us.. still thinking.. wait till we are settled.. it would be fun to work in Old Trafford.. haha.. yea.. hopefully la.. or watever.. anyhow, getting my degree is my utmost priority.. and it seems that i ll be needing extra tons of discipline and determination which i am really lacking of.. i think i need good great and long plan for it.. just wait till it's done..

oh weather is just so unpredictable.. been raining for 2 days.. and it's windy.. hopefully tmr not.. or may be i shd get a thicker jacket or wear more layers.. as it's just too cold.. and blow till i 'drop'.. i started to cook by myself.. thou not nice to see but nice to eat.. =)

that's it!! goodnight ppl.. muackss......