it is a very tough subject when u're sharing a space under the same roof with people.. not to mention all the while u been staying with ur family so u might be less.. happy.. example sharing the same sofa with others.. =) everyone got their own views and opinions.. so arguement and unpleasant situation is almost a MUST to happen, just the matter of time.. in fact there is nothing much u can do really.. but to compromise and improvise lo.. imagine wat else still are waiting to happen in two years time.. haha.. long way to go le.. but sometimes it's really about to give and take.. back a step back and give ways.. (but got limit la).. and the most important is how much effort u put into finding a solution.. it is a part of learning and growing up.. dealing with people is the taughest subject in Salford now it seems.. haha..

p/s: dear zoe, good luck!! u so smart.. sure can la.. =)

(jeen, yee, fei, ying)

oh well jeen.. i hope that right now u're reading this.. (coz it's all gonna be urs)..

i don't think i ever told you..

how much u mean to me..

there when i was sad, u convinced me..

there when i was lazy, u helped me..

there when i was sick, u looked after me..

there when i was stubborn, u scolded me..

there when i was happy, u shared with me..

there when i was innocent, u taught me..

all the way, i just wanted to say..

THANK YOU with all my heart..

and one last thing.. wat a big day for you today!! so HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!! am glad to have you, fifi, and ying ying to be my sisters.. i miss shopping and eating with you all.. loving u lots.. XOXO.. muckssssssssssss...

today marks my 6th day in Manchester.. im not goin to talk abt how much i miss my home again (just keep it at the bottom of my heart ll do)..

so now daddy and mummy.. wat i want to 'rant' is..

i am happy to walk to the city centre..
i am happy to shop for groceries..
i am happy to carry heavy stuffs..
i am happy to wash plates..
i am happy to do everythings..
as i finally find the taste of HOME here..

well, i dunno how tasty the Jamie's kitchen is.. but in Bramall Court, Cannon Street i found P.A.T's kitchen.. where the warmest place to dine in.. and IT helps me to carry through my severe homesick.. (i am happy to eat again)..

but yet 'where we love is HOME.. home that our feet may leave.. but never the HEART'..

and lastly.. i wished to say THANK YOU to the 2 VIP again.. u know who u're.. listening to my rants.. and most importantly.. bringing back my appetite.. haha.. and fatty lipyee ll be back soon.. =)

haih.. u know.. leaving to uk.. starting a new life.. learning more independent.. i thought i could handle it.. but i am seriously wonder if i am strong enuff..

no more home-cooked food..
no more pillow talk with sisters..
no more sharing clothes..
no more quarrels..
no more meals together..
no more noisy house..
no more proton saga..
no more shoulder to cry on..
no more laughing together..
no more shouting 'cheap', 'stupid'..
no more delicious food..
no more.. no more.. and no more..

i am starting to miss everything.. from all those places that gave me fond memories..
to each and every person that made a difference in my life..
i guess it wasn't until i choose to go that i realised how the little little things like..
coming home everyday to a family..
catching up with my friends..
and walking in Sunway Pyramid..

well.. it all mattered so much to me.. now.. sigh!!

hello people.. i am fine in Manchester, UK.. (sounds a lil bit late).. haha.. but do hope that u all are happy to hear that.. after 16 hours of travelling (OMG!!).. getting blisters for holding such ridiculously heavy luggages.. i am now.. here.. in Manchester, UK.. it's really tiring to pack and unpack, buy and walk around..
Bramhall Court, Cannon Street (the name of the place i am staying) is just a lil bit far away from the city centre and the university.. 20-25 minutes walk to the city centre and 15 minutes walk to the university.. (just in case u dunno how "far" i claimed on).. haha..
the weather is now perfect.. windy cozy and it's really every adjectives u can think of in a cold place.. it's not winter yet.. so i am thinking if it is a reason my heater is not functioning.. =( i feel cold at night.. anyway, i couldn't get any boaster around.. wat a pathetic place!! but my room is superb..
and finally me myself wanting to go home again.. sigh.. (but daddy, i got phobia sitting in plane.. so how??)..

p/s: due to my fren do not teach me to blog with pictures.. so pls stay tune for the pictures i am goin to upload soon.. haha.. and my dear fren, u know who u are.. haha!!

erm.. it's about time to... leave..
last night at home this year.. and really dunno wat shud i do..
relatives and frens came to my house.. gathered and chatted..
true enuff.. it was indeed my end of the world..
and i am goin to be in a world without daddy nor mommy mumbling about everything..
without sisters to fight with me.. literally..
i know its gonna be a wonderful world with my new found freedom..
fair enuff.. everything comes with a price.. i have to loss all my family members to gain the freedom.. knowing that things are never gonna be the same again after today.. i still have to go..
people had been hugging me, waving goodbye to me, wishing me luck and all the best..
and once again.. i know things are not gonna be the same again.. (tear starts rolling down)..
i am both excited and anxious.. couldn't imagine myself living alone without home cooked food..
but i know i am gonna be fine.. maybe missing the family a lil more day by day..
and i know.. a thousand miles away from home.. i will be good and take care of my own..
so take care people.. and may god be with my family and everyone who cares.. erm.. GOODBYE..

mentally and physically breakdown.

- a 'funny' and ugly haircut.
- an irregular heartbeat. (heart disease)
- a starvation.

everything goes wrong.. haih..
2 more days.. i'm still not ready!!

i am not busy.. pretty free i can say (if compared to last week)..
i have packed my stuff.. or i haven't (as if everyone said i bring too little)..
i dun speak much nowadays.. oh nope.. (i keep ranting to my daddy and sisters)..
i am having insomnia.. (are you joking??) yes i did..
i dunno.. i am leaving soon.. erm.. (5 days would be accurate)..
wat should i feel now?? crying not wanting to go??
oh nope.. i can't coz i was the one insisted on twinning..
i was the one who wanted to go uk..
9 months of preparation.. but still i thought i am not ready to leave my family.. my home..
haven't been staying out of this home for more than 10days..
but to think of this time, i will be in dunno how many miles away from home.. (not few kms le)..
i know i am gonna be good.. i am gonna have fun.. and i will have to study hard.. i know wat i am doing.. just that..

p/s: daddy, mummy, jie jie, fifi and ying ying.. u know how much i ll be missing u all.. that's a infinity i couldn't tell..