phhhew.. time flies.. 2008 came and went by.. today marks the last day of the year 2008.. well it's approximately 8 hours to go.. this year is definitely a memorable one.. there was a couple of setbacks here and there.. but overall is great.. things were also different in this year, been working 9 months in DK-QS has given me insight into the life of the QS profession.. and then studying in Manchester has tought me plenty of stuffs.. gained lots of experiences with the new environment and all..

here's a flashback in 2008 with no particular order:

1. gained precious working experience in DK-QS as a assistant QS.. got to know a bunch of good bosses, colleagues (QS and Archi), and ppl from all walks of life..
2. been walking a lot, crying a lot, eating (chicken and pork especially) and gaining weight..
3. wandered and explored to farwaway places and off course with the help of good frens and passer-bys.. and i am sure more to come..
4. been talking a lot to my mom.. communication enhanced..
5. learnt a lot more from internet by random surfing and googling.. (apart from MSN, facebook-ing, etc)..
6. "explored" cooking skills.. =)
7. been doing a lot of house chores on my own..
8. hung out more with frens..
9. be more organized in whatever i did.. especially no more burning the midnight oils in order to complete the courseworks.. feel so pround!!
10. became less hasty and thus can avoid unwanted results..
11. oh yea.. i started to blog.. haha..

It's too much and i can not recall..

year 2008 is what i considered as fun and exciting.. I believe there's more to come in 2009, definitely..

And happy new year to you all!!

~hectic weeks ahead.. busy days are coming.. not to mention the stress and frustration come along with it.. it always comes in a package.. great right??

~anyway, i am good here.. still good.. but is freaking cold now in Manchester.. i have started to wear 4 or 5 layers.. so now you know why i need to buy more clothes.. haha!! but still feeling cold.. x'mas is coming!!

~people are wondering.. are you really helping them by giving them everything, or are you making them feel more and more entitled that they "deserve" it at all?? however mummy, i just want to say thank you to you.. and i am so "rich" because you love me!!

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i just couldn't find any time to blog recently..

or i should say.. life in uk here is so much happening..
and everyday does have "something" happened..
in addition to that.. courseworks are tailgating..
leaving no room for me to 'navigate' to
"daily rants" (am wondering to change the title.. sigh)..
anyway.. let's share the following..

5th Nov - been to the interview in MU.. first question, please talk about yourself.. oh gosh.. i failed it as i didn't really know about myself.. but luckily i still managed to do well in other parts.. yea.. tadaah.. got the job.. at the night, attended the Guy Fawkers Night (was a bonfire night at 'Hidden' Park).. got to know quite lots of ppl from.. Malaysia.. haha.. darn funny right.. well glad to know them.. on the way backed to the house.. the bus driver didn't stop us at the place we stayed but drove us to the market street.. we pressed the bell le.. gila betul.. we had to pay and walk.. ridiculous lol.. freaking cold that night.. and yea.. we had late dinner at 11pm.. so much of rice and dessert - vanilla ice cream with nutbella chocolate as topping and bran flakes.. (drooling now).. haha..

6th Nov - oh yea attended an induction class - waiting on (serving in silver box).. well.. talked about yourself again in the very beginning.. failed again.. =.= got to know a lady from china named Grace.. (she is helpful).. learned about the table manners, wines, and everything on serving.. found that this job is hard to handle.. hesitated again.. doubted on the ability again..

7th Nov - rushed back to house after class.. yea.. it's lee poh's birthday.. (happy belated birthday to you again).. we video-called thru msn.. chit-chatted.. and the very first time.. ALL the ladies from my unit came to unit 3A.. haha.. but pity Alex couldn't get a bus to library.. and bus driver insisted to check on our student ID before boarding on bus.. and i promised to serve them with the fried rice but failed again.. as the portion for 4 is not like last time anymore.. is bigger and bigger now.. oh gosh.. fattening..

8th Nov - what a dramatic on this day!! my housemate and tat su caused the fire alarm system broke down again.. one happened in afternoon and another one occured at night.. and now a club is formed.. i volunteered as president.. is about teaching ppl awareness on fire.. haha.. (jk..) and is the first day for Alex to work on MacD..

9th Nov - yaya.. yink teng's birthday.. tat su and i only found out that cakes sold in uk must be pre-ordered lol.. as there were no cake shops willing to sell cake for us!! so instead of cake.. we bought 2 dozen of doughnuts from Krispy Kreme!!.. haha.. and we got cake at last.. as his sister bought a cake with champagne online and delivered for him.. it's lovely.. and tat su treated him at Yates.. while i prepared mi suan soup + egg + fried chicken for him.. (reminds me that someone brought me to eat ramen instead of mi suan during my birthday this year.. but who cares.. oh yea.. thank him)..

10th Nov - extremely cold today.. loiterring from Mary Sea Cole to Chapman.. as we were not sure where's the tech 2 class conducted.. started to feel nervous again.. first coursework to be submitted on friday.. oh gosh.. palpitation struck me.. haih.. working hard on the coursework..

11th Nov - during the process management class.. Alex CWC laughed at my bad skills of taking pictures (he said it should be captured from top angle instead of bottom angle lo.. yea.. i got to admit that i didn't like to take pictures and camwhored la.. that's why i dunno).. and dumbness on using the "diamond" lol.. the 3 guys skipped class and went to work for MU.. first time ever.. they didn't cook dinner for me lo.. and i had dinner my own.. there were times i refused to eat with them lo.. but this is the first time they don't cook for me.. kla.. forget la.. haha..

12th Nov - yea.. the last 3 days before the submission.. stayed in my spacious room and did the last sketch-up.. let's the pictures do the talkings.. haha.. lazy to type liao..



13th Nov - early in the morning (uk time).. malaysia should be around 5 in the evening.. called to the sister and ranted again.. told her that i had palpitation again for few days.. chatted and chatted.. sorry yea jie jie.. i know you're having a hard time on your study also and the exam is ard the corner.. but still i can't help to call you so often lol.. as there's no one i can talk to.. i don't want to bother others so much.. and we both found out that sth interesting.. well my eldest sister is struggling on the body sistems, tendon, ligament and etc etc (proud of you!!) while i am on the structural designs of a building, joints and connections.. haha.. that's funny lo.. oh yea.. my laptop can not get connected on the wireless broadband only on this day.. haih.. and so i slept the whole day but still couldn't get my mind out of thinking of the coursework.. haih..

14th Nov - yea.. finally it's submitted.. but i am sorry to Alex.. early in the morning still do need you to help me in sketching the 3D-plan (due to a bit senget alr).. scanning and arranging well.. but.. but i prepared you a breakfast.. so it's deal.. haha.. and after the class.. they went to shop with me lo.. as i needed to buy a pair of shoes for working tomorrow.. and then we decided to have our dinner at TaiWu, which is a famous cantonese restaurant in Manchester.. and which Tat Su longing to go lo.. haha.. and we ate lobster, scallops, and etc.. 59GBP for 4.. haha.. delicious but i still missed the char kuay teow in seri kembangan lo.. huh.. and yea.. can not sleep well again.. as tomorrow need to work mah.. first time ever the "princess" needs to serve the princess.. tough-nya!!

15th Nov - yea.. terrible day has come.. brilliant Lip Yee forgets to put on the black trousers and goes to work lo.. and only realised when checked in at the Unit 30.. oh gosh!! how can it be happened on me?? oh my dear.. it did happen la.. and on you lo.. huh.. was disallowed to work lo.. was so depressed along the way out from Unit 30 to the north stand and to the bus stop.. still couldn't believe me myself had made this serious mistake.. no one could help.. either they were busy working or they didn't pick up my phones.. sigh.. huh.. i am ALONE.. oh can't stand anymore.. crying out loud and loud at the roadside.. summore with no tissue.. luckily got a gentlemen giving me tissue on time.. =) scared the sister and friend who were talking on phone to me.. oh thank you for the brunch you made.. as i am actually feel cold and starved..

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am sitting here and blogging after enuff of sleeping.. and i do realise on certain things.. i have been telling my family and friends "i will take care myself.. don't worry for me" or "yea, i am more independent now".. oh gosh.. all these are lies.. i actually don't.. and i am just depending on the 3 guys to take care of me lo.. and this time they are not with me.. no one reminds me.. that's why i made mistakes.. yea.. i do really rely on them so much lol.. and that's why i only know to cry and crave for help again when things happened.. and i cried because of jeans!! so malu ho kow lip yee..... and now only you know..
and as what a friend always concludes in the emails to me "look after yourself nicely lady".. yea.. i promise i will apply on myself this time, really!!

isn't i said my life here is so much "happening".. haha..
it's 5:30am in uk now.. that's all for now, some other time maybe.. take care and cheers!!

**to these people: my family, jie jie, E.A.P.. you now see me sharing so much on the blog and i supposed you to know that i am alright now.. i am sorry lo.. i know i was so ugly yesterday.. haha**

Happy birthday to babe kiyora!!

**i was forced to write this post.. if not her mummy doesn't want to answer my call.. sigh!!**

Cheers!!

Happy birthday to Wan Ming Hui.. the rockstar / the doctor / the bf..

Stay happily with her.. my dearest in the world..

This is a post specially dedicated to .............. mummy of babe kiyora!!

(Babe kiyora)

Well.. so how should i start..

Yo!! Happy Birthday to Kow Lip Ying..

She is my ex-room mate / trash talking mate / good companion / little sister..

Her zodiac is SCORPIO.. omg!! i find myself hard to communicate with 'SCORPIO'.. thank god she is definitely an exception.. she is so close to me.. and we always walk by holding hands together.. and yea.. i am missing her thick thick palm..

She eats a lot lolx.. that's why she aged 13.. (omg 13 only nia..).. looked 17 and her thinking is 21.. haha.. kidding with u la..

She is a penny-pincher lol.. she cried at least twice a day.. but that's before she aged 10.. people now is taekwondo with 2nd dan.. so doesn't cry easily.. XD!!

Football fan and also Liverpool die-hard fan.. oh, that remind me of Liverpool jersey + old trafford season tickets = present!! *blek*

Your exam is around the corner.. i wish you good luck la.. but i am wondering ppl always get No. 1 still deserve luck meh.. =)

Or i wish you stay healthy and pretty la..

ying ying, i love you lotsssssssssss.... muacksssssssssssss!!

it's blowing a gale outside.. i am sitting here with only echo surrounding me in this room.. i am feeling cold and warm.. and i find myself stucked between the world of confusion and the world of fact.. neither here nor there hanging in the balance of transition.. there are times when i have to put on my fake smiles in front of people.. i have to do things i don't like and i have to go thru the hard way.. or maybe i have to go to the wrong way in order to make my next path the right way.. and i am not sure which is the right one.. am in my tears and tell myself they are all fake.. i try so hard to become someone everybody worth but on the other hand i am looking myself down.. why isn't?? the person is me wasn't me afterall..

i've been here for almost 1 month now.. wow.. time flies.. okie, so i am 1 month closer to meet my family.. haha.. wat a dream!!

things are not as bad as wat i think maybe.. haha..

at least living out on myself for the first time.. burned out something for the first time.. it's better to learn earlier than late night.. trust me.. everyone learns better the hardway..

see this is the result!!

my lunch.. =).. it's tempting rite?? off course i know.. and it's tasty too.. haha.. (I COOK ONE WO)!! haha.. **do praise me, then i ll consider to cook for u**

i think i realize a lot even though just living here for like 1 month.. it is only through hardship then we learn our lessons best.. and i think it serves u all as well.. well so no point flushing myself down the toilet lo.. haha..

or at least..

erm.. it's at flat 3A, room 2.. =)

hey daddy, mummy, and sisters.. if u happened to wake up at this time.. yea.. a very good morning to u all.. do enjoy the possible breakfast we might have on sunday.. like chili pan mee or sampeng road har mee or dim sum or nasi lemak or duck king noodles or etc.. huh.. i just came back from the trip - blackpool le.. yea.. it's timed 1:25am now!! i am dead tired.. so good night!! _______ to be continued!!

Date: 07 October 2008
Time: Ard 1pm
Venue: Flat 3B, Bramall Court

A lady named Kow Lip Yee nearly burned down her house's kitchen in this gloomy afternoon.. As she did not aware that the food got burnt to a crisp in microwave.. and then caused the smoky kitchen.. The incident had brought the following circumstances:-

1. the fire alarm rang like nobody business as in the "efficiency" of the smoke detector..
2. the administrator came up and knocked on the door..
3. the house is fill with the unpleasant smell..
4. she called back home and asked for help!! (and ranted to go home again!!)
5. she brought the smell over to next door and whole lecture hall..
6. she is sorry to her housemates.. and the guys whom she ranted to..
7. she is definitely guilty and sad.. (although she knows that that is enuff of ranting..)

She is now racked by feelings of guilt.. but how and who cares??
(edited) oh yea.. the bf cared.. asked me not to burn down my 'penthouse'.. =_=''
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Seriously if there is a toilet bowl right now beside me.. i would flush myself down.. for crying out loud now, i still can't believe i am this careless.. i am sorry to everyone for bringing so much of troublesomes.. sigh!!

Time: 3:15pm, Thursday
Venue: Lloyds TSB Bank plc St Marys Gate
Incident happened by the conversation between the personal banker, Steve Branagan and I

As to open a bank account, i have to answer a questionaire regarding my personal details..
So it started like.......

S.B: ........
L.Y: ........
S.B: ..........
L.Y: ...........
S.B: so how much you have to pay for your accommodation each month?
L.Y: erm.. about two thousand and five hundred pounds sir..
S.B: oops.. are you sure miss kow?
L.Y: erm.. sorry just a while (then thinking).. yea, i am sure..
S.B: well i am wondering where is the penthouse you're staying in..
L.Y: oh.. i am staying in Bramall Court at Cannon Street.. where is not a penthouse sir, it's a university hostel..
S.B: oic.. erm.. miss kow, i think there is sth wrong with the fees that the uni charged on you.. i suggest that you go and check with the relevant authority..
L.Y: oh okie.. thank you..

a moment later, while checking on the answers that i provided............................ (laughing) excuse me sir, i think i must be too nervous till spelled out a wrong figure.. =) haha.. (laughed together)

to all my friends.. i am not exaggerating.. but i do feel sad of leaving these (u guys) wonderful people in my life.. no doubt we will meet again but would we be this close to each other? can i still confide to you like how i always do? wat will happen to our meet on Friday? it would probably be replaced with some other activities, which i may or may not like.. but i ll always remember to be grateful for meeting u guys opened up my eyes to great things and i have learned a great deal.. thanks for bringing out the best in me.. life as in the last 4 years is by far the most interesting and educating time of my life, perhaps it's the people that i have met that made it so worthwhile.. i got to admit that i am always not putting in effort to keep in touch.. but this time, trust me.. i am giving my best..

p/s: i am writing this as i got an email from a friend.. i am sorry if u think u're deserted.. but the fact is that u're not.. i say this from the bottom of my heart!!

i have learned the art of letting go not too long ago.. and trust, the whole time of not being able to let go, it was very hard for me.. i live a life where i was just so pathetically wallowed on my own self pity and with all honestly, i believed it looked bad on me too.. it made me looked so bitter.. i then told myself.. i ll nvr dwell on bad things for too long, nvr again.. letting go may be one of the hardest things we ll ever do, but we finally do let go.. we ll realize that things that seem so terrible dramatically bad to us are just petty things that we should have swept off eons ago.. i know i can't undo the past but i know i can let go and let karma take its toll.. i already have let go. now, wat abt u?

ahem.. ahem.. i am now a university student!! hooray.. Salford undergraduates.. (yet, u hv to study hard la..) haha.. erm.. i got 3 subjects for this semester.. but the timetable is full from Monday to Friday.. ridiculous i think.. anyway.. i attend only 2 hours class each on Monday and Wednesday.. while 4 hours class on Tuesday and Friday.. acceptable i guess..

anyway we plan to work.. a few of us.. still thinking.. wait till we are settled.. it would be fun to work in Old Trafford.. haha.. yea.. hopefully la.. or watever.. anyhow, getting my degree is my utmost priority.. and it seems that i ll be needing extra tons of discipline and determination which i am really lacking of.. i think i need good great and long plan for it.. just wait till it's done..

oh weather is just so unpredictable.. been raining for 2 days.. and it's windy.. hopefully tmr not.. or may be i shd get a thicker jacket or wear more layers.. as it's just too cold.. and blow till i 'drop'.. i started to cook by myself.. thou not nice to see but nice to eat.. =)

that's it!! goodnight ppl.. muackss......

it is a very tough subject when u're sharing a space under the same roof with people.. not to mention all the while u been staying with ur family so u might be less.. happy.. example sharing the same sofa with others.. =) everyone got their own views and opinions.. so arguement and unpleasant situation is almost a MUST to happen, just the matter of time.. in fact there is nothing much u can do really.. but to compromise and improvise lo.. imagine wat else still are waiting to happen in two years time.. haha.. long way to go le.. but sometimes it's really about to give and take.. back a step back and give ways.. (but got limit la).. and the most important is how much effort u put into finding a solution.. it is a part of learning and growing up.. dealing with people is the taughest subject in Salford now it seems.. haha..

p/s: dear zoe, good luck!! u so smart.. sure can la.. =)

(jeen, yee, fei, ying)

oh well jeen.. i hope that right now u're reading this.. (coz it's all gonna be urs)..

i don't think i ever told you..

how much u mean to me..

there when i was sad, u convinced me..

there when i was lazy, u helped me..

there when i was sick, u looked after me..

there when i was stubborn, u scolded me..

there when i was happy, u shared with me..

there when i was innocent, u taught me..

all the way, i just wanted to say..

THANK YOU with all my heart..

and one last thing.. wat a big day for you today!! so HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!! am glad to have you, fifi, and ying ying to be my sisters.. i miss shopping and eating with you all.. loving u lots.. XOXO.. muckssssssssssss...

today marks my 6th day in Manchester.. im not goin to talk abt how much i miss my home again (just keep it at the bottom of my heart ll do)..

so now daddy and mummy.. wat i want to 'rant' is..

i am happy to walk to the city centre..
i am happy to shop for groceries..
i am happy to carry heavy stuffs..
i am happy to wash plates..
i am happy to do everythings..
as i finally find the taste of HOME here..

well, i dunno how tasty the Jamie's kitchen is.. but in Bramall Court, Cannon Street i found P.A.T's kitchen.. where the warmest place to dine in.. and IT helps me to carry through my severe homesick.. (i am happy to eat again)..

but yet 'where we love is HOME.. home that our feet may leave.. but never the HEART'..

and lastly.. i wished to say THANK YOU to the 2 VIP again.. u know who u're.. listening to my rants.. and most importantly.. bringing back my appetite.. haha.. and fatty lipyee ll be back soon.. =)

haih.. u know.. leaving to uk.. starting a new life.. learning more independent.. i thought i could handle it.. but i am seriously wonder if i am strong enuff..

no more home-cooked food..
no more pillow talk with sisters..
no more sharing clothes..
no more quarrels..
no more meals together..
no more noisy house..
no more proton saga..
no more shoulder to cry on..
no more laughing together..
no more shouting 'cheap', 'stupid'..
no more delicious food..
no more.. no more.. and no more..

i am starting to miss everything.. from all those places that gave me fond memories..
to each and every person that made a difference in my life..
i guess it wasn't until i choose to go that i realised how the little little things like..
coming home everyday to a family..
catching up with my friends..
and walking in Sunway Pyramid..

well.. it all mattered so much to me.. now.. sigh!!

hello people.. i am fine in Manchester, UK.. (sounds a lil bit late).. haha.. but do hope that u all are happy to hear that.. after 16 hours of travelling (OMG!!).. getting blisters for holding such ridiculously heavy luggages.. i am now.. here.. in Manchester, UK.. it's really tiring to pack and unpack, buy and walk around..
Bramhall Court, Cannon Street (the name of the place i am staying) is just a lil bit far away from the city centre and the university.. 20-25 minutes walk to the city centre and 15 minutes walk to the university.. (just in case u dunno how "far" i claimed on).. haha..
the weather is now perfect.. windy cozy and it's really every adjectives u can think of in a cold place.. it's not winter yet.. so i am thinking if it is a reason my heater is not functioning.. =( i feel cold at night.. anyway, i couldn't get any boaster around.. wat a pathetic place!! but my room is superb..
and finally me myself wanting to go home again.. sigh.. (but daddy, i got phobia sitting in plane.. so how??)..

p/s: due to my fren do not teach me to blog with pictures.. so pls stay tune for the pictures i am goin to upload soon.. haha.. and my dear fren, u know who u are.. haha!!

erm.. it's about time to... leave..
last night at home this year.. and really dunno wat shud i do..
relatives and frens came to my house.. gathered and chatted..
true enuff.. it was indeed my end of the world..
and i am goin to be in a world without daddy nor mommy mumbling about everything..
without sisters to fight with me.. literally..
i know its gonna be a wonderful world with my new found freedom..
fair enuff.. everything comes with a price.. i have to loss all my family members to gain the freedom.. knowing that things are never gonna be the same again after today.. i still have to go..
people had been hugging me, waving goodbye to me, wishing me luck and all the best..
and once again.. i know things are not gonna be the same again.. (tear starts rolling down)..
i am both excited and anxious.. couldn't imagine myself living alone without home cooked food..
but i know i am gonna be fine.. maybe missing the family a lil more day by day..
and i know.. a thousand miles away from home.. i will be good and take care of my own..
so take care people.. and may god be with my family and everyone who cares.. erm.. GOODBYE..

mentally and physically breakdown.

- a 'funny' and ugly haircut.
- an irregular heartbeat. (heart disease)
- a starvation.

everything goes wrong.. haih..
2 more days.. i'm still not ready!!

i am not busy.. pretty free i can say (if compared to last week)..
i have packed my stuff.. or i haven't (as if everyone said i bring too little)..
i dun speak much nowadays.. oh nope.. (i keep ranting to my daddy and sisters)..
i am having insomnia.. (are you joking??) yes i did..
i dunno.. i am leaving soon.. erm.. (5 days would be accurate)..
wat should i feel now?? crying not wanting to go??
oh nope.. i can't coz i was the one insisted on twinning..
i was the one who wanted to go uk..
9 months of preparation.. but still i thought i am not ready to leave my family.. my home..
haven't been staying out of this home for more than 10days..
but to think of this time, i will be in dunno how many miles away from home.. (not few kms le)..
i know i am gonna be good.. i am gonna have fun.. and i will have to study hard.. i know wat i am doing.. just that..

p/s: daddy, mummy, jie jie, fifi and ying ying.. u know how much i ll be missing u all.. that's a infinity i couldn't tell..